I should be pleased, but…

…but I never am.

The Islamic Horizons issue with my article about gun violence is out.  I tried out a more narrative-y lede and I thought it was okay when I wrote it, but as usual when I read my published work I feel like such a hack. I shouldn’t have read it, I suppose – as I discussed previously I hate reading my own writing, at least once it’s published. I actually didn’t read farther than the lede because I couldn’t stand to feel even worse.  I saw an actress interviewed recently (see video clip below; scroll to 1:12 to see the inside of my mind) who said she hates to watch her own performances and has actually only seen her latest film one time.